I don't realize how much I rely on Justin for entertainment during week nights until he's away on business and I'm home alone with Tank. Even if he and I spend our night sitting on the couch eating pizza and watching Harry Potter, it's very comforting to me just to have him there making comments about what we're watching or talking about what happened at work that day.
He's away on business this week, so it's just me and the dog. I usually don't mind the first night or two by myself because I can catch up on my DVR'd Oprah episodes or tackle the closet that I've been meaning to organize for a month, but the days after that seem to drag for me. This week, I planned on keeping myself busy with friends and family every night and it's actually making the week go by very quickly!
Last night was a lot of fun, Chica and I planned to go to our favorite Mexican restaurant for "our usual" then we were going to go do some baby clothes browsing. When I was trying to get pregnant and it wasn't working, I would avoid the baby section of the store like the plague. It made me MISERABLE when I had to walk past all of the adorable clothes and toys. I sometimes feel a little guilty for being so excited about buying blankets and booties…almost like it could be taken away from me at any moment.
I haven't purchased a single thing for my babies yet aside from the onesies I used to surprise Justin with the news of my pregnancy (and one of those onesies was definitely for a little girl). I think I'm too afraid to jinx anything. I know that sounds ridiculous to a lot of people, but I can't help that it's the way I feel. I have no idea when I think it will be okay for me to start.
Tonight my mom and I are going to look at baby gifts for my cousin-in-law's!! I saw an adorable "Irish Cutie" onesie for her baby yesterday that I'm tempted to go back and buy -- hopefully I'm not too late because there was only one left. Maybe, just maybe, I'll pick up something small for my little guys while I'm there.